What the hell am I doing!?

There is a lot of BIG stuff going on right now in my life. I feel like my heads going to explode. Let's see. There's the job change. I'm familiar with that though. I've only done it like 60 times in my life. And not just jobs either. I mean like careers! Then there's the house. Which is the biggest fiasco I have ever been involved in in my life. I will have to go into that later. We haven't been able to make a car payment in months because we spend money like we think someone else is going to just mail the car companies a check for us! Now we are getting a new dog from the shelter tomorrow in addition to the one we already have. People must look at us and think, "God, are they f*cked up!" We are. But ya know what? For as f*cked up as we are. We sure do love to spend time together. I really do love my wife. I adore my daughters and worship the ground they walk on. And if it wasn't for all of that I probably would be just a drunk like I used to be. I keep thinking. I wonder if all of the other things in our lives would just fall together, this would be perfect, right? WRONG! There's always something going on.
I have been thinking lately how I really need to try to become a more loving and understanding person. I am not very accepting of others at all and am very quick to point out they're defects. Just call me Angry Guy. I need to go read this book I got about Shar-Pei dogs. That's what comes home with tomorrow morning. Mixed with Yellow Lab. Sweet looking dog. I guess it belonged to some guy and he moved and he couldn't keep him. He's only 10 months but weighs about 45lbs. already. The guy at the shelter says he should only get around 60lbs. at the most.
(Queen Wave)
Greg

P.S. I will post a picture of him tomorrow.